Kooshdakhaa
Gold Member
I probably should mention that I'm bouncing in and out of the ANGER stage of grief lately. If I seem kind of mean, that's probably why. Not an excuse, just an explanation.
I'm trying to decide how to carry on (or not) with my life. It's become kind of like a nightmare. I wake up and remember I'm living in a nightmare. I used to be someone who would get all joyous because a sunbeam came through the window while I was working in the kitchen, that sort of thing. I could get all giddy over silly little things. No more.
I had read a book called "One Thousand Gifts" by Ann Voskamp. It suggested keeping a list of one thousand "gifts" in your life, one thousand things you are thankful for. This could be something as small as the sunbeam coming through your kitchen window. I was up to #316. I got that list out the other day to look at it. The number one thing I had put on my list, the FIRST thing I thought of when thinking about what I was thankful for...was my dog Greta.
And now she's gone. The other 300-something items don't really mean that much anymore. I'm just trying to figure things out.
I'm trying to decide how to carry on (or not) with my life. It's become kind of like a nightmare. I wake up and remember I'm living in a nightmare. I used to be someone who would get all joyous because a sunbeam came through the window while I was working in the kitchen, that sort of thing. I could get all giddy over silly little things. No more.
I had read a book called "One Thousand Gifts" by Ann Voskamp. It suggested keeping a list of one thousand "gifts" in your life, one thousand things you are thankful for. This could be something as small as the sunbeam coming through your kitchen window. I was up to #316. I got that list out the other day to look at it. The number one thing I had put on my list, the FIRST thing I thought of when thinking about what I was thankful for...was my dog Greta.
And now she's gone. The other 300-something items don't really mean that much anymore. I'm just trying to figure things out.
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