Zone1 God is fed up with us.... and we are often fed up with Him

[notmyfault2020]

Christians have plenty of understanding and patience generally with people struggling. We don't have a lot of patience for people insinuating that God is abusive, which is what you stated in your OP. I'm glad you're praying and making progress....but try not to blame God, and then blame Christians for "not understanding".

Well, you're just a far better person than I am.

Sorry about that...