I agree with the Democrats on economic and environmental issues, and with the Republicans on the issues of crime, race, and immigration. This makes me ambivalent. Ambivalence is the enemy of fanaticism.Your obsession with race realism is fanatical. It's not even rational.
The fact that you think you are liberal but still cling to this kind of racist garbage is sad. I'm not even sure what you hope to accomplish, other than feeling better about your own failed life because you think AA has cheated you somehow.
I am even ambivalent about Negroes. I have known several who were more admirable than most of the whites I have known.