How is your clinical depression coming along? Are you still medicated ?No human being has a beautiful body. Well formed men have admirable bodies. Female bodies are squishy and repulsive. Which has nothing to do with porn.Looking at a womans naked body is no more deviant than looking at cars in a hotrod magazine or women looking at other women in a glamor magazine.
That isn't porn though.
Porn is sex acts. I have no desire to see other people have sex.
Naked women are beautiful and I appreciate them.
You really should see a mental health professional to deal with your self-loathing.
Why would you make up something like self loathing? Is it a lack of imagination?