Seawytch
Information isnt Advocacy
They are not always cognizant memories, at times they are also suppressed. So much ado about your "first person eye-witness accounting" .
So...not a choice even if that were true...which it's not.
I'm not repulsed by or hate men. Sex with men was pleasant...below the waist.
"Sex with men was pleasant...below the waist." So actually seahag , whether you realize it or not, you've just betrayed a deep inner cause of your Dementia - possibly psychotic , possibly more deeply traumatic - The subliminal aspects of your Psyche fears Men - perhaps your early Childhood Trauma was not of a sexual nature , perhaps something else you experienced or witnessed , perhaps more than one instance imprinted on your impressionable young mind.
Violence ,or violent acting out by a male relative - it doesn't even have to be physically violent , just something that would generate fear within a pre-cognizant or semi-cognizant infant or Toddler could trigger a severe phobia directed at the Male sex, so much so that your inner defense mechanisms even generates a revulsion of the Male - face 2 face sex with men was not pleasant for you - but you still got your rocks off by the intercourse.
You sound like I girl a boinked b4 I got married - have we met b4 ?
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I can "get my rocks off" on the spin cycle of the washer. I don't fall madly, deeply, wholly in love with it like I do women.