Saying it doesn't make it true, bro. It's not what people say that tells you what they believe it's what they do. You instinctively recoil from being an atheist as well you should.There's no such thing as an atheist. If it means the opposite of a theist. Because a theist is someone who KNOWS god exists. I don't believe they exist. No such thing. And an atheist can't KNOW there is no god. So no such thing. Assuming atheist is the opposite of theist.
Are you following the logic?
So I'm an agnostic. But not about your religion. On that I lean atheist because I smell bullshit. I'm so sure your religion is fake I'm willing to put my soul on the line. Fuck Jesus!!! Fuck his tiny little ahole. Lube it up first. While he's on the cross.
That's how sure I am the Jesus story is a myth.