No. It's because you make it up on the fly to suit whatever purpose you have for that day.I'm sure that it seems that way to you, but I assure you, it only seems that way.
Probably because your soul "bursts at the seams" every time you defy the law of God and turn to a lifeless matzo made by human hands, eat it for spiritual life, and then crap it out.
Like I have told you many times, you believe that defying Divine law and dying "the death" for your deliberate sin is a religious experience... and I agree. Its just not a very good one.