Your anecdotal "feelings", claims to have heard voices from the gods, etc., are not evidence of anything. They are your anecdotal claims, utterly bereft substantiation.
What rational connection can you make between the natural laws of the universe and your gods? Immediately, you dismantle your own argument when you hope to make make some absurd connection between the natural universe and supernatural gods.
Where did original matter and energy come from? The Big Bang just spontaneously created them? Out of what?
The lack of scientific knowledge at this point of what caused the big bang does not default to a sky fairy for an explanation and cause![]()
I didn't ask what caused the Big Bang. I asked where the energy and matter from it came from. If there was nothing before the Big Bang, why was there something after?