Fuck! !"emilynghiem, post: 10479465, member: 22295"]Dear Fellow Democrats and Constitutionalists:
After fighting with three Democrat friends who kept blaming me for blowing up from stress,
but wouldn't acknowledge the damage caused by Democrat leaders exerting the pressure on me that was causing the stress, I got tired of being blamed when these same Democrats won't hold leaders accountable for abuses. This is like letting the rapists go free and blaming the victim for PTSD and emotional blowups while recovering from the abuses we didn't ask to be put on us.
I thought the people blaming me were also victims of the same abuses.
But they can forgive and accept their own reactions to this abuse, while blaming me for mine, so that is not equal. I don't know if it is "male behavior" or political bullying or what, but it is sick, and I am sick of it.
I refuse to be blamed when I am under tremendous strain and burden
from trying to solve problems and take responsibility, unlike those who keep waiting on others.
And when I do try to take that on, I get blamed for being emotionally overwhelmed?
I am lucky to be sane at all.
With the last bit of sanity I have, before I become a complete "sociopath"
to cut off all emotions all together in order to function,
I would like to write a letter to Democrat members and leaders
BEGGING FOR HELP to support and fulfill the sustainable
campus plans developed in my historic black church district
that is a Democrat precinct. These plans would end the dependence
on govt welfare and charity handouts by teaching independence through a
sustainable system of public service internships and job training in
property, finance and business management, legal and govt reforms and restitution for abuses,
and health and human services.
There is no reason not to support these plans
except that people like my friends are too busy blaming other people as victims
to invest money into solutions, but keep funding hate campaigns that don't solve anything.
I cannot understand or accept this anymore.
I worry I will completely lose my mind, or cease to be human
so I don't have to feel the anger at all this abuse. I just have to
distract myself and go into denial in order to stay focused on the solutions,
and that is not mentally healthy. I should have the right to GRIEVE
and yet if I express this emotionally, I blow up and get BLAMED for that.
This is crazymaking, and I want to share these sound ideas for
govt reform before I am no longer able to construct a cohesive sentence.
Can you please help me take these ideas
and write out a formal ultimatum to the Democrat Party
to either solve the problems by funding a solution
or quit complaining and blaming others for it?
I am a Democrat and had every intention of staying with the party
to reform it as a team, to overcome these divisive barriers and bullying.
But if I am not welcome in my own Party, but am going to
be blamed the same way as you would blame others who complain about
Democrats without investing in solutions as I have worked two jobs to do,
that is unacceptable.
I would like a formal apology from three Democrat friends
I feel have unfairly blamed or abused me while failing to go after
the Democrat leaders who CAUSED the problems that PUT the pressure
on me that has caused me undue strain and stress, imposing on
my physical financial and mental health, and making me feel like a slave and a victim.
But instead of just doing nothing and complaining,
I kept working to invest money into solutions, so I believe I was different
from other people crying victim victim or others who BLAME opponents for criticizing Democrats.
I think it is wrong to blame me when I was trying to fix things.
So I want public acknowledgement of this difference.
And hope people will take a look at these campus plans
and see why I was working two jobs to try to stabilize and support
the community in getting these public attention and funding as they deserve.
See Freedmen s Town Historic Churches and Vet Housing and http www.houstonprogressive.org
Adaptation of these campus model plans for reforms to help Veterans,
immigration and slave labor issues are posted here:
Earned Amnesty and music video for Sustainable Campus converting sweatshop labor to workstudy jobs
I honestly give up trying to help people in my own party
who turn around and either blame or abuse me without holding
responsible the Democrats who put me in such a compromised situation.
Thanks if you can please help!
I wish I could stay with the Democrats, and call forth the leadership
who CAN work with Republicans and set up a system of all parties
working together, and even running together on the same ticket
and having a cabinet or coalition of party leaders collaborating.
So if there are any Democrats out there who believe that
inclusion of diversity means respecting political beliefs equally,
and any others who believe in conflict resolution and consensus
on policies to include all people and parties, please let me know if you can help.
I can't do this alone, and put up with the blame being projected on me
when I am trying to solve these problems.
If I wasn't already crazy going into this, I think I will lose whatever sanity I had.
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RE: Thank you. Decided to leave the Democrat Party because of you. And plan to go PUBLIC with my grievances against abuses within the Party.
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Dear D1 and D2:
Thank you for everything.
Because of abusive behavior
by several males of the Democrat Party
I still consider good friends, including you,
I have decided to leave the Democrat Party
unless I receive a formal apology for
blaming and abusing me when I was
under STRAIN for trying to solve the problems
CREATED by leaders of the Democrat Party
who have abused members like me.
I understand that my "blowing up" not only
at you two (and another friend I will also list
in my final request for an apology if I am going
to stay and keep working with the embattled
Democrat Party to solve our problems as a team)
and also "blowing up" at Garnet Coleman,
Jolanda Jones, and others is considered
emotionally out of control
But it is INSULTING to "blame this on me
as you would blame Conservatives who
are NOT solving the problems I took on"
Taking on TWO JOBS and working like
a SLAVE to the point I was a danger on the road
and had to quit driving
is NOT the same as people yelling at Democrats
for not doing anything to solve the problems caused
by our own leadership when those people AREN'T
helping either.
But I WAS helping and was working more jobs
than both of you combined to fix problems
caused by OUR PARTY.
I believe when I blew up at you for
not taking responsibility for your vote,
this is DIFFERENT than if someone
cuts you off or rejects or judges you
for being Democrat who ISN'T under
so much pressure to save an entire
historic district working two jobs to do it.
This is completely insulting and abusive [to imply we are the same,
both "arrogant". What is "arrogant" about taking on the burdens of
the entire party to take responsibility for those who aren't?]
I will not name you three in my formal
letter to the Democrat Party
but will describe you as
Democrat 1
Democrat 2
and Democrat 3.
But this abusive behavior of
males competing with other males
to bully instead of solving problems
being blamed on each other's parties
is TOO MUCH
and is putting an UNDUE
burden on people like Gladys House
and me, who are both working two jobs
each, while Democrats like you
wait on someone else to fix the problems
caused by abuses by Democrat leaders.
Sorry but I will NOT be part of
this kind of political bullying
and cult abuse.
This should NOT be allowed to influence govt
much less dictate policies.
This is TRULY sick.
So THANK YOU for opening my eyes
that this VICTIM behavior is truly
sick and is rewarded and encouraged
by either the Democrats or by the Party
System that rewards this kind of behavior.
Sorry but that is NOT what I gave up
so much to work for;
I sought to EMANCIPATE and LIBERATE
people from this VICTIM mentality
and yet I've found myself
ABUSED and BLAMED for trying to
SOLVE the problem by setting up
a sustainable CAMPUS system for
training people to own their own
cities and manage their own govt
to be FREED from this oppression.
If you do not see that the work I did
is different, and not the same as the
other things you blame on others,
I do not want to be part of this Party.
There is something WRONG with it
if you cannot correct the problems
as I was seeking to do.
Thanks, sorry but I cannot be abused
like this anymore and have NO IDEA
if it is coming from male behavior
or partisanship or whatever,
but this is abusive and not acceptable.
The difference with me is I was TRYING
to invest in a solution, so the strain
I am under is DIFFERENT from people
who AREN'T working on a longterm SOLUTION.
If you and other Democrats cannot SEE that,
you do not DESERVE to have me work to achieve
the goals of inclusion, diversity and uplifting minorities
and oppressed people to full equality as the sustainable
campus plans would provide mentorship to do.
These plans have been in our Democrat District
since at least 1994 and not been funded or followed up on.
So if the Democrats won't support solutions from
their own membership, maybe other parties will
recognize the opportunity and jump on board.
I will ask Congresswoman Lee's office one more time
to support these campus plans, and if there is no commitment
to follow through and recognize these plans of Gladys House,
Lenwood Johnson, and the ones written up by [Democrat 1 or D1]
and me trying to represent them all, then I am not going to
work with a Party that censors and abuses its own members!
Why would I do that?
Why would I yell if I weren't under so much pressure
from trying to SOLVE problems created by Democrats?
And be so INSULTED that instead of going after the
Democrats who caused and cost these problems,
I GET BLAMED when I blow up trying to fix them?
If you want to say I am "emotionally unstable"
I argue that the plans I have endorsed and promoted
are perfectly sane. And that's all I was trying to fund.
If you haven't tried working two full time jobs to
pay for the cost to 5 or 6 nonprofits damaged by the
abuses of Democrats destroying poor districts,
I do not think it is fair to criticize or insult me
by comparing me to people who haven't lifted a finger.
Sorry.
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