This was instilled in me by my parents. They always told me I had to be 10x better at something than a white person just to get to the same level. They did the same thing with me so I do the same with my kidsI got school books for the next school year, and played school with my girls when they came home from school. They had fun and were always a grade ahead. Made straight A's easy work for them. And they learned how to speak another language while we were at it. If more parents did what you did Asc, we'd have smart kids in this country again.
So they taught you to see white kids as the enemy and you are raiding your children the same way.
If you are typical, then the Civil Rights Movement has failed.