There are many houses in the kingdom. Nothing is wasted, that is the first law of God. Everything has a purpose. Only God sees the whole picture, the big picture.God has already forgiven me through Jesus Christ.
The only unforgivable sin is rejection of Jesus Christ and lying about God.
God does judge and is a Judge and He will Judge you harshly if you do not repent.
You will never stand before God without Christ because God cannot allow sin to stand in His presence and only Christ can make your righteous.
All our righteousness are like filthy rags before God. Only the blood of Christ can was us clean.